morning poem

Awake early on Wednesday morning

tossing and turning in bed

no place for sleep

out of bed at 5:30
awake at 4:00
eyes getting heavy 6:29

the sun rises without notice
the birds sing and now are quiet
stillness of the air

surrounds me
punctuated sounds
returning to silence

sitting on bed
looking left and then right
slowly stretching

trying to welcome the day
while slowly awakening
my body

stretch
elusive sleep will
not be with me today

I fell in love with you when

I fell in love with you for the first time when I found out I was pregnant and again when I gave birth--to the most perfect baby I had ever seen.

When I had the courage to break up with your father

When you wrote your first poem

When I bought your first bike - and again when you fell off your bike

When you and Ryan built an Ice Museum

When you fell down the steps at Maxfield and broke your ankle

Waiting in line for conferences at St Agnes School

Graduation - high school and Admission Possible

My first Line Breaks
         Willie Ney's house in the winter

When you graduated again

When I put you on the plane to New York City and I cried

When you stepped on stage at the Shed

I raised you to be strong and independent and to think
and to be the woman you want to be - whatever that looks like

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I fell in love with myself ---

I lost it for awhile and then found it again when the focus returned to myself.

I fell in love with myself when I had the courage to look deep into myself
I saw what I was worth and believed it

I left my old life behind and found love

A love poem

I love myself enough to change
          to step outside of my comfort zone
                        I moved back to Minneapolis

away from my life in St Paul
        into the unknown

50 is looming - leaving the 40's behind. the decade of change

Ever unfolding, changing, emerging, expanding without question

new life awaits me
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Out of darkness - through the damp spring and into summer

Loving myself is essential to living

to honor myself is to love
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to love is to have the courage to change
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I love my hair - my wild blue, purple, pink hair - every changing
       my piercings
            my big feet - my body

I found the courage to love my body and when I did everything in the mirror softened and looked more real
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with loving myself comes confidence followed by pride and forward movement
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The work of the last winter, the healing, the hibernating

spring into summer

emerging love, simplicity - trust - faith and the power to live

Sitting at my desk in Minneapolis. My computer and writing. typing.

Change is happening

Life
 body
   love
     family

Life changes are the sustenance that moves me forward.

sustenance the supporting of life or health. why choose life or health? Do we have to choose life or health?

Body changes at the moment are a necessity to support my life and increase my health

Love changes - relationships change. They always say that one door opens as another closes. The door of love is closing. That crazy intimate love that you share with one person. Last night was solemn and quiet, tear filled and this morning with the sun shining I am listening to the door closing and waiting, turning slowly to the next door.

Family changes --what is your definition of family? Is it your mother and father, brothers and sisters? What if they don't want to see you. See who you are. Is it ever possible to move away and create your own family?

who thinks that will be better.